recently i been emoing.. nw all i wan is happily enjoy my life... saw from other blog, abt bintan resort..
so went to c their website.. nv been thr before, it look veri beautiful, specially the beach, blue colour de, nt like singapore.. thinking of going thr relax.. thr gt alot of things to do, like elephant riding, water sport ( cant swim, lolx ), kelong trip, traditional fishing trip, etc... looking interesting leix... i wan to gooooooo.... i prefer nirwana resort hotel, nirwana beach club or Mayang Sari Beach Resort.. their room look so nice n relax.. lolx.. mayb my wedding shld held thr in future... hint hint**
shall find one group of frenx go thr ba.. anyone wan?
tis is my blog.. i just write out how i feel in my heart.. i dunn0 say to who.. so i write here... not bcos i wan to tell ppl...these few days, i dun know wat i realli wan.. i cried n cried.. i cant stand it nor.. is like i going crazy soon...i always think here n there.. i am afraid... i dunno in future wat to do.. i got no goal, no aim.. i am lost.. who realli know wat i thnking in my mind.. i dun dare to walk out one step.. i always standing in my own world.. just mi alone.. keep distance with other ppl, cos i dunno who can be trusted, mayb suddenly tat person backstab mi, i will be more hurt..nw all i wan is faster go back training, the place whr i can realli be happi for one day, without any stress n worries.. with them, my heart n mind is calm...just went to plaza with jas.. bot somethings.. den went home n changed.. nw going out soon..
as today guan ji going off to Beijing due to school, ltr meet him at airport ba .. 6months... c u after 6months!! hahax... 0015 flight off to beijing~
today at w0rkplace, saw him.. we are like stranger, i dun dare to look at him.. happi for him tat he passed his practical test.. gt his driving license.. but i tink he hate mi, dun wish mi contact him de.. so i as0 dun dare to sms him too..
after work, actuali wan go out but i no mood to go out.. so went home.. chit chat with mummy abt him.. i last time trying to let my mum like him, but mum seem like dun realli like him tat time, but just nw when i told her, he realli is a nice guy, even wan to come our hse when daddy birthday.. she laughed.. even told mummy i saw him today... lolx.. missing those days.. how i wish he c my blog.. hahax.. impossible.. i am dreaming...
the previous entry is nt talking abt my ex boon.. is other guy.. nt him.. but bcos of him, i realli afraid in love relationship.. is nt easy to find a true love.. starting, it may seem he realli nice, but after few years, it will nt be the same anymore.. he hurt mi too deeply le..
for mi, all i wan is someone who can dote mi, honesty to mi n aso 1st place in his heart.. cos all along i nv been in his heart 1st place.. how hurt when he infront other ppl say i nt in his 1st place.. h0w silly of mi!!! three years five months relationship.. after breakup, say so much sweet talk.. say will get married if i together with him.. bullshit... so girls out thr, be careful... action speak louder than words.. when gt more choices, they will choose, they still wan to have fun n play, dun wish to get married so fast de.. he still have 5 years, he can slowly choose.. But i dun wish to be in his list anymore.. dun try to fool mi again..
i can give ppl advices, but when things fall on mi, i dunno wat to do... so stupid mi...
missing going training on saturday nor.. anyone miss mi? hahax
anyway i been working tat why nv go training.. recently my mind is confused......
sorry tat i hurt u.. those days we together, i will always rmb de.. i wont contact u de.. from a stranger, nw end up still stranger... he is a nice guy, mayb i nt a gd person, dun suithim... to mi nw, love i haf no confidence.. i used to hope tat i will get married soon.. but nw, i am afraid.. even afraid to start a new relationship.. mayb i haf to be alone until i old ba.. so my frenx, pls stay by my side...
tis post will be my longest post.. hahax.1st october, my 1st birthday celebration, went to eat sakae n to ALPS cafe with Go, Alvin, Boon, Bi Shan n the rest.. den we countdown Alvin birthday, 2nd Oct.. so qiao rite? hahax.. until 2am went to Bi Shan hse, play up down n continue our drinking.. hahax.. after tat 4am went home liao.. next day working.. ke lian.. hahax..
den after work, actualli is mi, adam, shirrna n gary wan to go BJ pub de, den yi ting n ting ting came along.. hahax, so happi, they say wan help mi celebrate my birthday.. loves u all.. den bot mi cake, but tat day forget to take any photo.. drink n drink.. the pub boss treat mi one jug.. thank alot.. den my frenx those thai band, sing happi birthday song for mi... i am veri happi n even ask mi go up stage sing song, let mi play with the electric guitar... in the end, i was veri drunk den went home..3 October 08, MY BIRTHDAY!!!! at ALPS cafe again.. went to jasmine hse, den off to Orchard road.. went to eat WARAKU pasta with jas n jun.. thank for ur treat.. hahax.. den go to plaza singapura walk ard, off to ALPS cafe.. QX, Guan Ji, Made, Pade, Jas, Jun, Bao, Peggy, Boon, thank to these ppl, came down n celebrate with mi... Pade bot a small cake for mi.. HAPPI.. ah bao n peggy bot mi a tiara n helped mi wear.. so surprise.. i haf a great day.. Marc, the boss treat mi drink Waterfall, damn strong nor... den the supervisior, treat mi lychee with dunno wat alcoholic.. is nice la.. hahax.. forget abt the ending part la.. hahax.. anyone who know, dun mention it anymore... hahax..
photo credit to Bao n Peggy
4 october, no training, went to plaza meet bao, peggy n daryl.. daryl bot food n drink for a mini birthday celebration.. thank daryl.. went to his hse play mahjong, eat n drink.. there suppose a surprise for mi.. but end up, i discovered it.. But thank to Ivan n sky for coming down..